by John D'Emilio
If I think back on the steps that brought me to embrace being gay,
they follow a path littered with books. First was Advise and Consent,
a wildly popular novel from the late 1950s that I read before
starting high school. The main character, a senator who had a gay
affair while in the army, commits suicide when he's threatened with
exposure. From there I moved on to Another Country by James Baldwin.
One gay character kills himself. Another finds happiness, but only by
moving to France. My life prospects had now improved to 50-50, but
how would I get to France?
In college, I read Oscar Wilde's De Profundis. It's an eloquent,
passionate, and strong-willed defense of love between men, but Wilde
wrote it while in jail, which is where, apparently, you end up if
you're gay. Books were letting me imagine that there were other
homosexuals in the world. They were even giving me the words to
defend my feelings and attractions. But jolly and hopeful they weren't.
Then, in 1973, Mimi, a friend who identified as bisexual and lived in
a group household, gave me a brand-new novel that, Mimi said, she
read in a single sitting. It was published by something called
Daughters Press, a feminist collective in Vermont; the author was a
lesbian activist named Rita Mae Brown; and the intriguing title was
Sure enough, it was an irresistible page-turner. Brown seized upon
core American themes and shaped them into a completely lovable
lesbian coming-of-age story. Molly Bolt, the narrator, perfectly fit
the mold of a rugged individualist; she was determined to clear her
own path in life. Just like the heroes of 19th-century Horatio Alger
novels, with luck and pluck Molly was going to rise from her
dirt-poor origins until success was hers. She did all this with a
side-splitting, sassy humor that made me laugh out loud. Sure, as a
woman and a dyke she faced trials and tribulations. But you knewI
knewthat nothing would stop her. I had never before read anything
like this, and I, too, stayed up all night to finish.
I don't think it was an accident that the author of Rubyfruit Jungle
had already cut her teeth in the lesbian, gay and women's liberation
movements. Rita Mae Brown created a ruckus in the National
Organization for Women when she raised lesbian issues. She helped
write "The Woman-Identified Woman," one of the classic radical
lesbian manifestos of the time ( its opening line: "What is a
lesbian? A lesbian is the rage of all women condensed to the point of
explosion." ) . As part of the "Lavender Menace" contingent, she
disrupted a feminist conference in 1970 in order to make lesbian
issues visible. Brown was also in the collective that published The
Furies, an influential lesbian-feminist journal of that period.
Rubyfruit Jungle was a new kind of queer writing. It was writing
designed to set its readers free. Now that kind of political writing,
I know, can lead to some pretty dreadful books. But, in this case, it
produced a novel that, 35 years later, still thrills readers of every
sexual persuasion. Reading it in 1973 alerted me to something that
was going on among lesbian activists that I didn't yet see happening
much in my gay male circles. Lesbian feminists seemed to believe in
the power of culture to help remake the world.
One way of grasping this difference is to look at two of Chicago's
early queer newspapers: Lavender Woman ( LW ) , which ran from 1971
to 1976; and Gay Crusader, published between 1973 and 1976. At the
risk of a generalization that I know won't hold true for every page,
the Crusader tended to report on news and events. It was about the
activities of a movementdemonstrations, organizations, political
happenings. LW was about culture, consciousness, and ideas. It
covered at length the new world of women's music. It explored lesbian
literary history. It was as likely to have a centerfold of poems as
it was to include photos of a rally.
This emphasis on culture as a force for liberation shines through in
the annual lesbian writers conferences held in Chicago between 1974
and 1978. The conferences were the inspiration of Marie Kuda, whose
own history of community activism stretched back before Stonewall.
Valerie Taylor, who keynoted the first conference, remembered getting
a telephone call near the end of Chicago's winter. She heard Kuda
saying "What we need here is a lesbian writers' conference!" So
Taylor said "fine" and a few women gathered at her North Side
apartment to begin planning. According to Taylor, Kuda was "the
energy and the brain power" behind all five conferences.
The conferences took place on the South Side, initially at First
Unitarian Church in Hyde Park, and later at the Blue Gargoyle. Women
came from as far away as Boston, Florida and Colorado. Even though
some notable figures attendedPaula Christian who, besides Taylor,
was another icon of the lesbian-pulp era, spoke at oneKuda meant the
conferences as "a meeting of equals."
Saturdays consisted of a series of workshops that, according to one
participant, filled "every nook and cranny of the First Unitarian
Church, from the loft to the crypts." Workshops ran the gamut from
the practical to the creative to the slightly ridiculous. Given the
strong homophobic bias among mainstream publishers, lesbian writers
worked hard to master the technicalities of self-publishing.
Independent lesbian presses were springing up around the country in
he 1970s, and these Chicago conferences helped lesbians teach each
other the mechanics of publication and distribution. Representatives
of women's presses and magazines came each year and generously shared
their mailing lists. By the third gathering in 1976, one attendee
commented that "slowly and methodically lesbians are beginning to
chip away at barriers that seemed impenetrable."
Many of the sessions focused on the creative process. There were
workshops on fiction, poetry, journalism, and theater. Women risked
the vulnerability of sharing their work with strangers. At one
workshop, lesbian feminist beliefs in collectivity led to the writing
of a short story together, with each participant contributing a
sentence at a time. This drove at least one of the women there to the
edge of distraction. But more often, women left workshops filled, as
one wrote, with "an intense and exhilarating energy."
The conferences also paid respect to lesbian literary history. "All
of us build on the lives of those who have gone before," Valerie
Taylor told those at the first conference. Keynote speakers described
the work of writers from Sappho through Virginia Woolf. Others
presented slide shows with images of writers and their books. Tee
Corinne gave a presentation on the visual history of lesbian
sexuality with a sampling of the 5,000 slides she had amassed in the
course of her research. These conferences were about the creative
process, for sure. But they also attempted to teach history at a time
when there weren't many queer courses in colleges and universities.
And there were moments of fun. I wish I could have been at the
Saturday night party in 1978 when many of the attendees came in
costume, dressed as their favorite lesbian literary hero.
Putting on these conferences was a massive amount of work. In 1978,
Kuda announced that the fifth was likely to be the last. But she
shared with those who were there her utopian fantasy of the future:
"My greatest dream is for a weeklong festival of lesbian arts with
music at one end, literature at the other. In between, all the visual
arts. Wouldn't it be great at McCormick Placeright after Illinois
passes the ERA?"