I Slept with My Own Father
September 22, 2009
"Don't hate my father," Mackenzie Phillips tells PEOPLE.
But in a tell-all book out Wednesday, the former childhood actress
reveals that her dad, musician John Phillips of the '60s band the
Mamas and the Papas, engaged with her in a long-term incestuous relationship.
Phillips, 49, who has survived drug addiction, arrests and divorce,
writes in the book High on Arrival that she was already a star
playing a boy-crazy teen on the TV sitcom One Day at a Time when her
father had sex with her on the night before she was to marry Jeff
Sessler, a member of the Rolling Stones entourage, in 1979.
FLASHBACK: Mackenzie & Her Dad Kick $1 Million Drug Habit
"On the eve of my wedding, my father showed up, determined to stop
it," writes Phillips, who was 19 and a heavy drug user at the time.
"I had tons of pills, and Dad had tons of everything too. Eventually
I passed out on Dad's bed."
"My father was not a man with boundaries. He was full of love, and he
was sick with drugs. I woke up that night from a blackout to find
myself having sex with my own father."
"Had this happened before? I didn't know. All I can say is it was the
first time I was aware of it."
Phillips' life began to spiral out of control. In 1980, she was fired
from One Day at a Time because of her constant drug use. That same
year, she went to rehab with her father. Her sexual relationship
with him had become consensual.
For much more from Macknezie's book including her fling with Mick
Jagger, what her family said about her rape accusations and her fears
that she was pregnant with her own father's baby pick up the new
issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands now